Musik..Fury..Scars..Poetry..Rebel....Art Saves My Soul & OT3P Feed it...
Against Control & Conformity..Need A Revolution So Bad...I'm In Love With Arts & Musik..I'm Losted & Broken..Lonely & Frozen..So Painfully Weak..
Dirty Wings With Silent Screams...
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WHAT ELSE COULD YOU NEED?!?!
YOU' VE TAKEN EVERYTHING!!!!!! ~Otep Shamaya ''Croocked Spoons''~
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''It's better to be hated for what you are than to be loved
for what you're not...'' ~Kurt Cobain~
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Pain in my stomach...
Slices in my soul...
Can't keep my demons inside...
Can't keep control...
I heard your voice all around me...
All my sins grows in your old blasphemy...
You keep me locked in my own tortured soul...
Now, do you remember...me???
This girl who could'nt look you in the eyes...
See...I'm not this child anymore...I am now,
Full of scars, perfectly flawed, a survivor of human lies...
Even if I cried all my tears and I hated the human race,
Even if my secret fears surrouded my blinded faith,
With all the betrayals hidden by your faked smiles,
I am alive...
And you can't hurt me now....
Hey, long time no talk ayee? xD
And im alright i guess.
And the show was totally wicked awesome! Still cant believe that i went to see em live!
I got my report card from school, im going to alert bay for abit and i just went to a funeral last friday C:
yea its me, and thanks...
bands...OTEP! bring me the horizon, Nirvana, opeth, lamb of god, slipknot, rob zombie, marilyn manson, all time low, zeromancer, kittie, murderdolls, korn, my chemical romance, dethklok, owl city, as i lay dying, the guilt complex, pantera, etccc...
what makes me feel alive??? cutting, doing dangerous shit, seeing my blood...
what pisses me off??? fakes, preps, liers, old people, cats, people killing innocent animals, my bitch of a mom, school, religions, and rules/laws.
my passions are...writing poetry, skateing, hanging with friends, smoking...lol idrk
.....uhmmm im 15 go to Hoover high school in Des Moines, IA,
i live in pleasantville right now with my daddy cuz my mom hates my guts and she dont wanna deal with my problems, uhmmm i go to lutheran right now for drug treatment... from 8:30am-3:00pm...
i have 3 sisters way different from me...
all older 1. Alexis just turned 16 and is 6months prego...loves rap and preppy shit,
2. Katina 18...uhmmm loves country... 3.LaTisha 21 has a 2 year old son named Cale and shes a lesbian...i love them all tho...
uhhh idk what else to say...
im emo/gothic...hazel eyes, short black/redish hair...dying my bangs green soon...
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your turn...
btw y do u think ur life is pathetic???
hello!!!!!!!! im jus got the comment....i know !!! ive threw away the prescription somewhere in my room ill have to look for it.....it does nothing for me jus tastes like shit........i dont no how it works for u.....besides the music arts and other i usually go in the back of the house there is a kinda forest thing crosing some drain and shit but its really peaceful for me...quiet ....i understand do u have any special way u go....its really nice.....so whats the latest with u hope u ok...
Halloween was awesome until my mother decided to try and ruin it, but it's okay. I know know that I cannot have a relationship with her, or my sister; as they both have told me that I'd be better off dead. So be it! I'll be dead to them and them only! I would rather not exist to them anyway lol. They both want to see my kids, but if I am dead to them, then so are my kids, but all in all, they can't have their cake and eat it too.
As for halloween it's self and the festivities, it was a blast. I had my good friend's brother with me (he's 12) and my two. they got free face painting just before trick or treating. All three made out like bandits. Both my kids had nearly 5 lbs of candy each, and their my friend's brother got nearly 8 all by himself. LOL! So it was fun, not too cold here, it was around 40 give or take a few degrees F. I was a dead fairy and it looked pretty good. I might have a picture I will try to post later. How have you been?
some bad news i got again from the doctor my child hood pain is acting up again ive been sick i guess pills as usual but they are finish now am even though ive been getting pain now and then i hate it i rather suffer than be in thoes pills thay are horrible jeeeez i hate this shit!fuck so how yove been whats new how youve been doing.//////=update me//////;]
thanks and that's true right now my what was suppose to be my best friend is not talking to me so i wont even try to talk to her cause y talk to her if she is going to stop talking to me
i haven't bee so good i just want to kill someone so bad i have been getting in fights with my fucking parents and some fucking friends that im actually noticing aren't my friends at all