Purplecrazytails's Blog (13)

lamentations

i'm again sitting in the dark all alone my mouth keeps watering for blood and for bone though my soul is stagnate, i beg to go home why does He turn away while i scream and moan they say when it rains it pours but will it be my blood spilled or yours my mind is so blinded by blisters and sours that i can't see my father anymore the light in my heart has become so dim the line between justice and insanity - so thin how am i to live in a world so absent of Him i feel diseased with each deadly si… Continue

Added by purplecrazytails on November 14, 2008 at 7:41am — No Comments

parasite

i am the worm below your feet a drone without rights i feed on broken promises a starving parasite disconnect me from this host i’m choking on its lies i’ve been broken and reshaped and stitched into this hide i’m writhing, i’m screaming the gods are all scheming i’m tearing, i’m dreaming but there is no redeeming there is no end to this no end in sight there’s only pain, anguish i am the living dead in my plight you feed me maggots of self loathing and tell me it’s salvation now the flies h… Continue

Added by purplecrazytails on August 25, 2008 at 12:30pm — 2 Comments

your hate

ever since i was a little girl your hate has been destroying my world…listen… 4 feet tall and long blonde hair dancing in my orange and white dress through the walls the screaming starts i hide. i cry. i shut up. i repress. look what your hate has done to me… from you i learned to hide because of you my insides died i became nothing. i no longer cried…just suffered! look what your hate has done to me… to my little ears you cried. to my little mind you lied. you made anger my bride…and made me… Continue

Added by purplecrazytails on July 18, 2008 at 1:35pm — 1 Comment

scientific evaluation of the spiritual shun

assumption number 1 god is infallible – biblically accepted assumption number 2 god makes no mistakes - biblically accepted assumption number 3 god is loving and kind - biblically accepted here in lies the inconsistency of my first three assumptions: i am the bruised and broken soul clinging to the wings of salvation i am the product of rape, the exacerbation of domination i am the mistake that barely survived extermination i am the abomination of purity, homo erotic elation and discrimination… Continue

Added by purplecrazytails on July 2, 2008 at 12:30pm — No Comments

vengeance

i am liquid anger, i am the blackened blood of death i am the movement in the shadows and the blood on her breath i am vengeance i am drowning in my me’s rotting guts i have made her make holes so i can crawl out of the cuts i am clawing inside her flesh to finally reach the light i am screaming in her throat but she bites her tongue with all her might i am drowning i am dying i am tired of her lying i am biting i am gnawing i am a fury and i am clawing free me, see me fuck you, be me vengeanc… Continue

Added by purplecrazytails on July 1, 2008 at 11:37am — No Comments

momma martyr

your pain is clawing it's way out of you and searing my soul the overflowing brutality that is yours has become my empty hole your sorrow spills out of you and i'm lapping up the blood of momma martyr's milk momma martyr firestarter i can't aid you i want to save you i don't know how to help momma martyr i'm not smarter i can't heal you though i cry for you i can't even fix myself bruises, blood, and extension cords broken, screaming, and raping hordes your life was stolen your body broken yo… Continue

Added by purplecrazytails on June 30, 2008 at 12:30pm — No Comments

pandora

i am silently screaming as i lay here in my bed sleep won’t come for me tonight there is a riot in my head the pressure is with me i feel it in my veins it is gnawing at my skull i am fighting the monster again there is only one thing to do one act of dementedness though i fight, i do succumb relief is worth my madness i roll over in my bed i stretch my arm to the floor my head calls me idiot as my nails slip open the drawer when my hand slithers inside i feel the familiar kit pull it from t… Continue

Added by purplecrazytails on June 25, 2008 at 12:26pm — No Comments

blood poetry in flowtion

what am i to you, you mighty destroyer? let me understand that i am just another give me your eyes, let me see myself in your dreams give me your ears, let me hear myself scream give me your mouth, let me taste my own blood give me your mind, let me feel the flood… ohhh… i long to kill you just to touch your skin i want to know what makes your eyes finally see me your fears of my blade arouse my beast within your beautiful, tethered body arched playfully in a crimson sea don’t you know my love… Continue

Added by purplecrazytails on June 25, 2008 at 12:24pm — No Comments

splitting

my mind screams in silent agony razorblade whispers splitting me in spiritual warfare shredding at my very identity i hate puking up every fucking breath of air can hell really be worse than this loathing of all man kind? i detest this diseased body driven by a distorted mind! before therapy i was scared, panicked, and dead inside now i’m enraged and broken with no dignity or pride with this fury in my heart, i can only see red i salivate for blood with these claws inside my head this putrid h… Continue

Added by purplecrazytails on May 22, 2008 at 1:30pm — No Comments

inside out

i wish our inner wounds were outwardly visible to see the broken and decaying force the them to see the invisible we are connected by blood rivers flow from you to me god won't recede the flood and the earth still vomits the sea the faithful witness firstborn of the dead he's closed his eyes and turned his head we are inside out we are the majority we're screaming at the sky but we're not the priorty i'm washed clean but don't feel safe it's the holy ghost against my wraiths we're inside ou… Continue

Added by purplecrazytails on May 21, 2008 at 12:30pm — No Comments

the bringer of demise

some days it's hard to fight the urge to chew through your throats until that final gurgle of a last breath some days the person inside me is struggling against my need for order so she can reign down with her sick form of death some days are just like everyone else's day except that i can't get the metallic taste of blood out of my mouth of madness some days i just feel like giving in to the angry bitch screaming inside me because at least behind her i can forget the sadness i dream of bones… Continue

Added by purplecrazytails on May 20, 2008 at 12:00pm — No Comments

i just want suicide

i do not want your pity i do not want your life i do not want your help i do not want more strife i just want suicide i do not care if i burn in hell i do not care if i leave you behind i do not care for your world i do not control my own mind i just want suicide i hate the people of this world i hate these demons in my head i hate how i feel every single day i hate that i long to be dead i just want suicide i have been living this lie for years i have been running for far too long i have bee… Continue

Added by purplecrazytails on May 15, 2008 at 10:30am — No Comments

the ghost

everybody walks through me everyday superficial conversation is just profane chills nobody sees my mind in disarray i'm the ghost in the room on pills we were all born in the dark though no one sees my soul slipping as they go they leave a mark and when I'm alone, i start my blood to dripping pandora's box holds everything i need she holds all my evil inside for me – my cage cloth and pins and alcohol and blades to hide the evil seeds blood is sweeter, thicker, and prettier than tears – and ra… Continue

Added by purplecrazytails on May 15, 2008 at 12:30am — No Comments